X'mas

perhaps this is the loneliest Christmas i have ever had
stuck in the middle of reading
i lost the thread of my thought
drowned myself in silence and warmth
so tender yet impressive
if this is what you want, i would be very glad to give it to you
thus nothing will bother you from now on
for the first time in all these days
i come to realize
this is precisely what i am longing for
thank you for teaching me all this
the unbearable lightness of being

Marlon Brando: shining in the deepest dark

he's a man of controdictories
glamor, tragedy and turmoil swirled around him
his performence left a hole in my heart
he is Marlon Brando, one of the greatest actors ever since

Timetable

星期天 翻译大赛 党课考试
星期一 presentation 音乐欣赏考试
星期二 语法练习 准备辩论
星期三 乒乓球考试 辩论考试
星期四 英美概况看完美国内战
星期五 presentation 社交礼仪考试

是从什么时候开始的，生活就这样被写在timetable上的各个事项主宰着，一件接着一件，压得人踹不过气，难受，如果活着只是为了完成任务，何必弄得自己如此狼狈，如果不是，如何逃出囚笼又抑或这些皆是通向我们理想生活路上的必经之途...

我快乐的太早 快乐得那么虚假

"讓我真心真意告訴你一件事。
當你不只一次說 "Please hate me" ，我就會把事情想得很仔細。如何憎恨，從哪件事、哪一刻開始憎恨。發覺，統統都不可能。我可憎恨全世界但無法憎恨你。我想，這就是你口中的、所謂兩個人之間的事，沒錯就是只有兩個人才知道。
最需要以憎恨這情緒來安撫自己的心的時候已經過去了。事情既從美好的初始而生，那麼，就會有一個美好的結尾。"

---劉美兒

Daisy

几乎是流着泪看完了雏菊

柴可夫斯基《六月的船歌》回荡在耳边

爱是毁灭还是救赎

大片的雏菊

被她的画笔赋予了最恒久的魔力

激荡了他枯燥的生命

美好的执念

只在一瞬

却负累一生

这份爱太过沉重

他们年轻单薄的肩膀

要如何负担

最美的爱

小太阳般盛开的雏菊

三个纯粹而执着的生命

都 只是不幸

偶然

最近在读新月派的诗集
读着读着
脑中满是支离破碎的画面和朦胧模糊的幻想
诡谲的天才
惨淡的人生
毒药般弑人的爱情
只留一声叹息


你我相逢在黑夜的海上
你有你的 我有我的 方向
你记得也好
最好你忘掉
在这交汇时互放的光亮
---徐志摩

《关于岁月的隐秘情事》

只因人间有字
嵗月不会無痕

當我們說歲月啊便是在說著不一樣的故事，猶如眼前出現一條河，河上飄浮著形狀各異、顏色不一的花葉，它們為何在此，要往何去，無不各有淵源於造化。探手入河，撈起花掏起葉，都可以聯想到生命裡的神秘與詭異。
-- 〈讓時間迷路〉

Always for the first time

Always for the first time
Hardly do I know you by sight
You return at some hour of the night to a house at an angle to my window
A wholly imaginary house
It is there that from one second to the next
In the inviolate darkness
I anticipate once more the fascinating rift occuring
The one and only rift In the facade and in my heart
The closer I come to you In reality
The more the key sings at the door of the unknown room
Where you appear alone before me
At first you coalesce entierly with the brightness
The elusive angle of a curtain
It's a field of jasmine I gazed upon at dawn on a road in the vicinity of Grasse With the diagonal slant of its girls picking
Behind them the dark falling wing of the plants stripped bare
Before them a T-square of dazzling light
The curtain invisibly raised
In a frenzy all the flowers swarm back in
It is you at grips with that too long hour never dim enough until sleep
You as though you could be
The same except that I shall perhaps never meet you
You pretend not to know I am watching you
Marvelously I am no longer sure you know
You idleness brings tears to my eyes
A swarm of interpretations surrounds each of your gestures
It's a honeydew hunt
There are rocking chairs on a deck there are branches that may well scratch you in the forest
There are in a shop window in the rue Notre-Dame-de-Lorette
Two lovely crossed legs caught in long stockings
Flaring out in the center of a great white clover
There is a silken ladder rolled out over the ivy
There is By my leaning over the precipice
Of your presence and your absense in hopeless fusion
My finding the secret Of loving you
Always for the first time
Andre Breton

他俩

马家辉和梁文道

有时候

還沒好好的感受　雪花綻放的氣候
我們一起顫抖　會更明白　什麼是溫柔
還沒跟你牽著手　走過荒蕪的沙丘
可能從此以後　學會珍惜　天長和地久
有時候　有時候　我會相信一切有盡頭
相聚離開　都有時候　沒有甚麼會永垂不朽
可是我　有時候　寧願選擇留戀不放手
等到風景都看透　也許你會陪我　看細水長流

靠近你 温暖我

上个星期天的奥场，我想我一辈子都不会忘记，夜色中透着点点的灯光看着你，你愧疚的微笑，沉默的侧脸和那晚一起被尘封成一段记忆。还清晰的记得那首《城里的月光》，我竟然就那样听着你讲话然后出了神。还有最后的拥抱，没有丝毫的感慨和心动。

靠近你 温暖我

其实我收获了很多

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story

Clementine: Hi!

Joel: Excuse me?

Clementine: I just said hi.

Joel: Oh! Hi, hello.

Clementine: I'm Clementine... No jokes about my name.

Joel: I don't know any jokes about your name.

Clementine: Huckleberry Hound.

Joel: I don't know what that is.

Clementine: Huckleberry Hound!

Clementine：I'm not a concept, just a fucked-up girl looking for peace of mind. I'm not perfect. 　　

Joel:I can't see anything that I don't like about you right now. 　　

Clementine:But you will. You know. You will think of things. I'll get bored of you and feel trapped, because that's what happens with me. 　　

Joel:Okay. 　　

Clementine:(laugh)Okay.

所有的结局都已写好

所有的结局都已写好
所有的泪水也都已启程
却忽然忘了
是怎么样的一个开始
在那个古老的
不再回来的夏日
无论我如何去追索
年轻的你
只如云影掠过
而你微笑的面容
极浅极浅
逐渐隐没在日落后的群岚
遂翻开那发黄的扉页
命运将它装订得
极为拙劣
含着泪
我一读再读
却不得不承认
青春 是一本太仓促的书
---席慕容

天使没有来